Squirty girl appreciation.

I’ve only squirted on one guy’s cock and that was my ex…I’m not sure if it will ever happen again with my severe trust issues. But it’s probably the best feeling ever to squirt my babygirl cum all over daddy’s thick cock. So delicious. I’d love to swallow a woman’s squirt too…it would be so delicious and feel so amazing to feel her cum gush down my throat…I’d want her to ride my face all night.

 

I feel like……

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….squirting all over a handsome sweet submissive man’s toned chest. Mmm. I need that. I’ve never done it but hopefully that can change.

And no it’s not urine. There is nothing wrong with watersports, I personally find it hot with the right person and connection but my squirt is not urine. A woman knows her body more than a man does. 😉

What submission is to me.

I do not like being bossed around. Especially by men. To me, being submissive isn’t about being bossed around, being humiliated…it’s about giving selfless pleasure. Because that feels better to me than receiving pleasure. I don’t even have to orgasm and I feel satiated with my partner’s pleasure. If I can’t make him/her come then I feel awful and unfulfilled. Everyone has a different definition of D/S, but to me it has nothing to do with what most of these dominant men seek.

*blushes*

I never used to like glory holes until recently. I guess I’m too much of a germaphobe to fully enjoy it….it’s a big reason why I don’t like bathroom sex. It would have to be super extra squeaky clean. Then I would probably enjoy it. Maybe like a classy elegant glory hole. Haha. That sounds like a hot story I should write. 🙂 A cute innocent looking girl like me shouldn’t be wanting these things right…

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Life feels so empty.

Life feels so empty and vapid without someone to share it with. I know that I can’t force it. It will come to me. But I am hurting so bad…aching to connect with someone. Someone who won’t just see me as a walking sex object that will please their ego and body for five minutes or less. I know that I’m going to be alone for a long time. I’ve entertained the thought of going on eHarmony. Perhaps trying a new ad on FetLife looking for a real relationship. I guess it’s worth a try.

Casual sex.

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I know I could easily find a random guy and give him sloppy, passionate head. It probably wouldn’t be too hard to go down to the waterfront and find a guy, or go on Craigslist, or a dating site, or Fetlife. But my romantic side says no. Because I’ve done that before and the feeling I get afterward is emptiness. I need hugs, too. And caresses. And nuzzles. And emotional support. Things I won’t get with a fuck buddy, a casual partner, a hookup. The last time I had random fun was in November of last year. I have been so unbelievably turned on lately. I just want to orally worship a guy everyday, whenever he wants, as long as he desires it. Let him ride my face and fuck my mouth like it’s my pussy. And then bake him cupcakes and make him delicious dinner. Play video games together, read together, go on hikes, go on road trips. Explore the world together, learn from each other. But most guys want NSA sex. The last guy that was interested in a relationship was a bit controlling and he was moving way too fast for me. So sadly that didn’t work out. I’m not looking to get married anytime soon. But I do need a relationship. I don’t think I can keep pretending that I am okay with just casual sex. Everyone is different, and I think it’s time that I start accepting myself more. I think I’ve been denying this for a long time because I know that this means that I am going to be alone for a long time until I find the right guy.

(I say guy, but since I am pansexual, I can date someone of any gender.)

I will continue to keep my heart open and wait patiently for the right person.